its all so surreal i dont really know what to think. everthing is changing even my mother is accepting im actually moving out and is gonna help me. its like a miracle.
i have this image of me having an amazing time in uni and not giving a fuck about anything except like the course , which im kinda like anyway except i get ridiculously emotionally attached occasionally and its really bad. then that fucks your mind up for pretty much ages. but if i can just not thatll be fantastic.
but im scared its all gonna fall apart
i get scared and like my supports kinda there but i dont wanna have to have a support its not as though i should rely on someone. the only person you should depend on is yourself.
so basically i feel sick scared. that im making a mistake AHHHHHHHHHHHH
